You know, no matter how I say this, it's going to sound like so much condescending crap, but here it is, because it's true: hang in there, it'll pass.

I've been there, done that, got the t-shirt. More than once, in fact. The thing to do is keep getting up in the morning. Concentrate on breathing. Before you know it, it won't hurt so much anymore. Then, you'll start having all of these interesting revelations about how things were, what they meant, etc. That's all really just crap as well, but it's important to go through it. It helps you to get a better idea of what you DON'T want in the next relationship...

Anyway, hang in. Use it if you can. Relationships make great fodder for art. Now is the time to be visceral...

Alex

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"I'm the Dragon of Grindly Grunn,
but my lunches aren't very much fun,
'cause I like my maidens medium rare,
but they always come out WELL DONE!"

I know what I do and don't want but the problem was there was so little wrong with it, you know? which is why it hurts that is was all of a sudden. But...I kinda had an epiphany today that just helped me get through it. and, for once, I am in a good mood! It'll hurt again, and soon, I am sure. But thank you. really, it's not condescending crap. it's more than anyone else has given me. All I have gotten is the "you don't need him" or "don't contact him and cut him out" but you know I'd like to remain friends. grr. people. thanks hun

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Shouldn't you be off bringing religiousity to all the fuzzie wuzzies or something?
-Mal Reynolds

No problem. I just know how much it sucks, especially the first time. If you are able to stay friends, you're a better person than me... Good luck, sweetie.

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"I'm the Dragon of Grindly Grunn,
but my lunches aren't very much fun,
'cause I like my maidens medium rare,
but they always come out WELL DONE!"

O.o; came from Horus_goddess's DA page and was shocked to read your journal entry.

My bf of 5 years as well (isnt that weird!?) recently...I'll call it "released" because dump is too harsh of a word. About a month ago.

I'm taking it horriably...

...but i guess i felt compelled to take a stab at, at least making you feel better, by telling you that things will get better and that things ALWAYS happen for a reason.

I just wish i could convience myself of the same.

*hugs* I hope things get better for you.

Hope you dont think me some weirdo for just dropping in and saying such stuff. ^_^;;;

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FRIENDS Initiatemeh, Walkthespiral, Musashi-chan, Jupta, Cme, Cursedkitty, MariRosa, Himoru, Ccomett, Tiny-harddrive, Cme, Swashbuckler, Hpop, Redpillows. PEOPLE I ADMIRE Satougaki, Koosh-llama, Damnskippy.

no...it's good to see someone in the same situation or at least, similar. He was my first, and it is hard to get over a first, I hear. especially when he is still nice, concerned, and loving towards you even though he wants nothing to do with your love.
what I realized is that he just wants to see if there is something better...something beyond whiney old me. He wants to still be around me, possibly even mutual sex, but commitment is something he does not want.
it hurts more than anything to know that I was never good enough. he was always pining after someone else, I am sure.
thanks for dropping by. I know things will get better, but it is hard to see how right now. it's been about a month and a half, maybe month and three weeks and I still feel like it just happened.
oh well...

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Shouldn't you be off bringing religiousity to all the fuzzie wuzzies or something?
-Mal Reynolds