...so. to end a WONDERFUL day of getting a temporary filling for a neglected cavity, I shall rant about it. *tougues where a bit of tooth once way and now where a temporary filling waits to be diagnosed* so i was at work and thought my tooth was hurting because I had something in it. so it took a tooth pick...and half of my tooth fell out into my hand. No pain or anything, just, PLOP! so I may end up needing a root canal. it's all SOOOO wonderful when you have NO insurance. It's not as bad as I thought it would be....but its a major inconvinience. Ironically, this happens the DAY that I am looking up dental insurance. Go figure huh? Someone needs to take murphy out. (murphie's law...hah...get it? He sucks!!) so I had a few stress attacks because I oculdn;t get someone to see me today but comfort dental, and they don't have sliding payments. so Loans...Loans are my new best friend and I missed a day of work...THAT 88 BUCKS!! coulda used it. at least comfort dental is open on saturdays....so I can be seen on weekends when I don't work. or before work too.

anyway, just wanted to share my inconvinience.

does anyone have any advice on getting a quick 1000???

UUGGHH! red delicious apples are NOT delicious! DO YOU HEAR ME!?! They are bitter and weird and even the one I am eating now is good but it stilll...SUCKS!!! the skin is tough, the flesh bitter! BITTTER!!! fuck this apple.

Matthew 19:12 (New International Version)
New International Version (NIV)

12For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage[a]because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it."

One of my co workers brought this passage up because I think someone around her might have said something derragatory about being gay...
the version she read me was waaaayyy more powerful.

this is the passage that comes right after it...

13Then little children were brought to Jesus for him to place his hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them.

14Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." 15When he had placed his hands on them, he went on from there.

it was just...moving to me I wanted to share it.

so as well all well know I got accepted into calarts, which honestly is the only thing keeping me going. I actually got a promotion in my job, too. so that was nice! I really was having a good, awesome life. for once things were going right.
I know it sounds all whiney but I just need to vent. well....after I get the promotion, my boyfriend totals his car, which I was in, there was no harm of course...but it means that we have no means of transportation. his dad was kind enough to let us borrow his car.
that was bad, but then a week after that, we all walk into work, start working, only to quickly learn our whole department after ten years had been closed and there was no need for us. if that isn't messed up, they only made the decision the night before to eradicate us.
well I had a 500 tuition fee to send to calarts due may first and I had arranged it so that I could actually pay half on may first and half on june first which was parfect. but now, the money I am saving for that is going to keep me going for a while, whilst I find a job.

shortly after, my boyfriend quits his job, thinking he had gotten another one he applied for, and now we are jobless.

SO after all this, my boyfriend goes to talk with his mom about some things, and these things directly involved me in ways they seemed to miss.
Our original plan was to sign a 4-6 month lease for the apartment so that when I left he wouldn't have to worry any longer about rent, or would only worry for a month. so he wanted to keep the apartment we are in now, but then he talks to his mom, and now is convinced the right thing to do would be to move out at the end of may when this lease expires, living on his own in a studio apartment.

Leaving me no where to live and on my own. They expected I would move back in with my family...there is a damn good reason I moved out in the first place. they are crazy. >.<;

so...basically, fucked up week...
just needed to vent.

ranting...so it's amazing how htings work themselves out. AMANDA QUIT!!! LIKE the day I was going to tell her I htink she is a washed up high school slut. isn't life wonderful?

so....problem all solved >D